What happened the other day made me think. I have come so far in accepting who I am and what I am that I know I like getting my bottom smacked and I do fancy a bit of being naked and being tied up and such things. I think it has to be a very special person for it to work but I am, sort of, ok with it. I can admit that I like it and want it to happen.
Still the other day when Fiona came in seeing me in a very compromising position and then got to smack my bottom, I found that this added an extra dimension to it, that someone was watching. It is not the first time that Fiona has been there but still it made me think.
I have to admit that there is a part of me that wants people to watch. It will not happen. I will not go out in the park and have Felicia smack my bottom in public but I am a little excited by the idea. My mind is now full of fantasies about times when this was possible. When they had whipping posts in the town squares and such things.
I know it is very different to be tied to a whipping post and flogged than to have Felicia have a go with a hairbrush but you know how the mind works.
Part of me would just want to show people, be me before them and have my bottom smacked and say, 'this is me, this is Tiny Unassuming Miranda, she likes to have her bottom smacked and she enjoys it!' I like to be me and not feel I am weird or have to hide. Not feel that I am one of those perverts that would corrupt the children and such things. I am just ordinary me and I like this.
I am not thinking of becoming a champion of spankers. Not at all. It is just that I sometimes just want to be me, no fuss, no hiding.
But we do kiss in public. That is weird enough according to some people. We don't do the full snogging routine but we do kiss and hold hands and such things. Most people are ok but there are places were you don't want to do that. And some say mean things to you. I am proud of Felicia and I am proud of being hers and I don't want to hide that.
This public spanking thing, is of course, not only about me wanting to be me. It is also about the humiliation of public punishments. There is this thought that it would be a little more, well, humiliating having someone watch it.
Can't get this out of my mind. Maybe we should invite all people who know about this over for a spanking party and then have Felicia spank me there. It wouldn't be a very big party but still an interesting idea. What you think?